Healing

 I didn't realize how much you hurt me until I left.

I keep asking myself if you ever loved me... but sometimes I even wonder If you even love you.

You taught me pain... a pain I have never ever felt.

I loved you... I loved you like I have never loved before and in return you hurt me like I've never been hurt before.

Your constant manipulation... you hurting me with conscience of the pain you inflicted.

Your betrayal... and lack of emotional responsibility... 

I protected you, I loved you, I wanted nothing more than your happiness, I wanted to build a life with you and you abandoned me way before than I did.

I wanted to build a life with you... a family with you... remember when we drove in front of the school we would in roll the younglins?

Remember us picking names for them... do you remember the future we wanted to build together?

And you took a shit all over those dreams...

But at the end I thank you...

Thanks for showing me you are not what I bought earlier in the relationship.

Thank you for showing me you don't know how to be a partner.

Thanks for showing your true colors.

Thank you